"Wolverine: I'm the best there is at what I do." or "Why I am through with bullshit."

I've been getting serious about lots 'o' stuff as of late, what with my new midget boss and all.

The revelation of the week came to me early Monday morning, as I was laying on an examination table with the lights off.

"I'm not going to get my blood pressure to go down far enough," I thought. "I should just get home. I'm already late...breathe, calm...that's good...why am I still here?"

See, I had to get by blood pressure down really low, like 130 over 70 or something, to be in this stupid E Coli study. It pays $800. It's like found money if I do it all. I can work while they experiment on me and learn what it's like to be in a research study...Richard Rodruigez, the mexican Tarantino, financed his first film this way.

Yeah, all this stuff is running through my mind and my BP is going nowhere slow. I flash back to Sunday afternoon, as I tell my insanely funny joke about my buddy Andy being scattered and smart and Kev laughs that I'm that way, too...

"I need to leave. This is bullshit."

"But it'd be so cool! I could write on my laptop while I'm innoculated with the attenuated bacteria...you know, the same one that's killed two people this week and caused the spinich shortage."

Yeah.

See, I'm not a house painter or a serious designer or a professional apartment broker or a guinea pig for that matter.

I do a couple of things well: Writing, reporting, photography. I need to stick with those and stop dallying...at least as much as I have.

Sheesh!

Anyway, I am reworking Goxray.com for the eventuality that I'll be doing just what I do best and not a lot of other crap that I may be cery interested in, but shouldn't pursue for money. Check it out if you would, and tell me what you think of the design in progress.